You know sometimes… All i want is for you to hold me and tell me it will be okay instead of yelling at me & saying how bad of a child i am. You make me feel like hell, every bit of me. You make me feel like i should have never been here & i ruin everything. Sorry i try to be responsible & show that i care about you. You took it wrong & just put me on blast. Your selfish. You only think about yourself. You make everyone feel terrible. If you really dont want me here, tell me to leave. Oh wait, you already did. You treat not only yourself like shit, yet others around you. Your boyfriend has no right to tell me that im the shittiest person around. You need to realize your not in highschool anymore, grow the fuck up. You honestly… Have changed so much. I used to be so close to you, but you know what? That grew apart. You are a great person at heart.. But you dont show it. Your right, i ruined you fun. You know you can have fun sober too? Your a bitch. I treat you so well. I show you i love you. I tried & you didnt care. You pushed me away, just like everyone else in your life. You think since your boyfriends a bamf.. You might as well be. You act like a child. I need you to show how you care &are there for me. I know its somewhere in there. You dont even realize im dead inside.
